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Well, honestly, I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing. Or feeling. Or even saying. I've been failing tests, sleeping more, eating less. I hate myself. I know that much. School is torture, it stresses me out so much and sometimes I just fake being sick so that I can stay home and quietly mope around and be depressed. I've been so emotional and over reactive lately. And I hate everything about my body, inside and out. I'm really afraid that I will end up with C's in some of my classes, but I can't do anything about it because I'm trying my hardest. Focusing is so hard and all I can think about is whatever happened the night before. My thoug

Well... Life sucks. And I mean really fucking sucks. I hate my parents. All of them. For so many reasons. They make my life worse. And I don't mean like because they 'take away my phone' or 'make me clean my room' but because they are stupid and hate me. Like that's cool, abandon me and treat me like shit, and drink until you fall over and then go to jail because you're a dumb ass and loose your job. But life sucks and then you die, right? Right. Rant over. Bye.

Okay so just a little vent here. So today is my first day of my vacation, where I flew down to visit my grandmother. My plane was delayed by two hours, so instead of taking off at 10, I took off at 12. So this means that I skipped lunch. So at 6 we went out to diner because we had just arrived in her city, because we had to drive two hours from the air port. So we went to get Mexican and like in most Mexican places, they give out ships. Now, I literally had 2 CHIPS and she takes the basket and says "Stop eating you'll get fatter." This pisses me off. I was hungry. You do not tell your granddaughter to stop eating. You don't take food away f